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ᴀʟɪꜱᴀɪᴇ "ᴊᴏᴄᴋ" ʟᴇᴠᴇɪʟʟᴇᴜʀ ([personal profile] swordfighting) wrote2020-01-21 03:44 pm

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HAVE SOME MORE MOTHERFUCKING FEATHERY IDIOTS THEN IG

[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-24 08:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's while she had lashed out in her blind fury as a Prismal that had tried to shove her aside in their hurry to flee. A split second decision of realizing the girl who looked pained with the blood(ied? or just red?) wings sticking from her like jagged limbs gone awry and was the initial target of his concern wasn't harmless and pained, but a threat as well. To someone else who clearly wasn't defending themselves.

So it all happens in a blink and a headlong rush where he doesn't have time to think, only enough time to react and throw himself forward as she dances forward to thrust at the Prismal. Ribbons of white-gold feathers erupting in a cowl around his neck and wrapping quickly down his arms like an unfurling cloak of wings—

—right as throws himself in front of Alisaie and her jab, flinging his left arm up to parry her rapier and knock it wide if he can as if it were a sword too. And much it'll sound like one if it connects with hers, with a metallic ting against black and marble-smooth—and hard—thin forearm.

Probably as his whole arm has transformed as he leapt forward, as a large and wickedly delicate claw as white-gold as his feathered (and still somewhat tattered, shedding feathers of light into the air) cloak. ]


I'm sorry— [ It's.. gentle, actually. Soft-spoken, a kind sort of voice, if a little roughened as well from his battle rush and without the slightest hesitation.

But with a hard silvery eye he's fixed on her as well, stern and unwavering, even if his brow twitches sharply down in a hard to read expression. Regret? Sadness?

Sympathy? ]


But I'm afraid that isn't something I can let you do.
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[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-24 10:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ So Allen... is not used to magic. Or magic-users. I mean, he is. Innocence itself can be any number of a seemingly infinite array of magic-like abilities. Noah similarly, apparently. And in fact his master was a sorcerer, but... Sorcerery also was a very different sort of thing, and not something Cross had used much.

But none of that involved lightning spells that could be used in swordplay.

So while he blinks for a moment at realizing she's mindless, isn't she and thinking that might make things easier—he also hears her sword crackle and sees it from the corner of his eye and realizes something bad is about to happen. A bit too late. ]


Aa—aaahhh! [ Shit.

It's more that the electricity has dazed and temporarily blinded from the stars exploding in the back of his head him that's the problem, especially since Crown Clown would seem to help absorb at least some of it. But she was moving fast before with a sword like that, he knows that's the bigger problem. So even if she's staggered him, he jerks back on instinct as well—

—right for her rapier tip to graze across his cheek as he does so. The unmarred one, at least...? Although that hurts and he sucks in an annoyed breath between grit teeth.

But he knows where she is now, or can at least guess, and his cloak whips around like a sentient thing in a billow and buffets at her. And whereas before it behaved gossamer and cloaklike, it seems to harden as he strikes out with it, with a blunt force similar to being hit with a swung sandbag. ]
likethelight: (311)

[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-25 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ugh. Underestimating someone might be something he'll do once, but—while Allen may not always be the sharpest crayon in the box when it comes to some things, street smarts and survival skills he does have and he doesn't make that same sort of mistake twice. And electrocution is something he really, really hates.

While she recovers he does the same, shaking his head to clear it, regaining his vision enough by the time she lurches back up. Aaa, that expression, kind of scary... Almost like she's a beast. It has to be because of the wings, so how does he break them without hurting her...? ]


I'm sorry, miss... [ A breath, and he shakes his head a final time. ]

Even if I don't want to get serious, this might hurt a little.

[ But she's also wide open and obvious, and he's trained and sparred with enough people to be able to see that even if he's by no means the best. So she'll please have to excuse him for fighting a little dirty, but he's quite sure he doesn't want to hurt her—

(and because it looks like she uses her sword to cast...)

He ducks the wide swing, quite neatly with a fluid dip and letting her move past him—so that he might whip his not-clawed, but gloved right hand up. A ribbon of the same glowing substance as his sleeve whips out towards her rapier, to bind tight around the blade if he's able to—

And if does, he'll yank back hard in an attempt to rip it from her hands. ]
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likethelight: (80)

this is entirely not what I planned but I'm still laughing

[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-25 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ Allen is never going to be sour with Link ever again the next time he papers him with binding papers for being unruly. At the very least it taught him to watch for the telltale hand signs the Crow would make before using them on him. Everyone has some kind of tell when invoking an ability and she hadn't spoken or seemed to do anything with her hands.

Also magic weapons. One thing he does understand well is magical/divine weapons.

He lets her rapier and the ribbon he'd manifested clatter to the side, turning his attention back to her as she comes after him. Which ah, crap. It's not that he can't block of course, but he only has the one hand he can safely grasp with. And she has those wings jutting from her wrists and back, bleeding, that he can only imagine is still causing her great pain that she just can't feel in her current state (or doesn't care, if she can). He can try to just knock her hands aside, of course, but then they're right back to where they were and honestly, this really just needs to stop her before she hurts herself. And what harm could she do now, really!! No offense Alisaie...

...if... if she can't cast any more spells like that...

But it's a gamble worth taking. So she'll find him incredibly easy to grab!

... Because he's also grabbing for her left hand with his Innocence-gloved right—to tug her towards him. Like someone beginning a dance might. Oddly tenderly, actually, as he's trying to take care not to hit the jutting red tips of wings. And he dips forward to speak by her ear, a bit more quietly this time.

Even if she can't understand him, at least it eases his conscious a little... ]


Really, sorry... [ He's said it again, but he really is apologetic this time for what he's about to try, because he really just. He really just wouldn't, especially with a girl. But she isn't really leaving him a lot a choice.

Even if he's left himself wide open to however she might try to strike him with her other hand. And that's fine, in fact. She can hit him as much as she wants! Because he's going to draw his left arm around her if he's successfully managed to tug her closer—or if she tried to bulldoze into him anyway. And, taking great care with his claws to keep them angled away as they're almost as long as his forearm...

With a slight
hff, as it's enough to drive some of the air from him too, he is going to try to loop his arm around her waist and smoosh her up against him. Quite tightly, and because he's trying to avoid brushing the wings that had erupted further up on her back. And that's quite the ridiculously iron grip he seems to have, especially with that arm... She could windmill or scratch at him as much as she wants to, he's not letting go.

If he can't grab her with both hands, he guesses he'll just have to immobilize her this way. Just please don't bite him. Also he's sorry if the feathers on his cowl tickle.... ]
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likethelight: (233)

I know, I love it a lot slkdfmdsj

[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-25 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ —oh. Oh, that's...

That's unexpected, actually. ]


Ah... [ He blinks for a moment at that, the moment the wings protruding from her burst suddenly and fell away onto the air, and that the fight seemed to go out of her all at once. Almost comically owlishly first, at least until he cranes his head and sees tears forming, even if she doesn't seem to actually be crying.

His expression quickly drops then, more sobered and eyes hooding softly as he loosens his grip immediately. Though he won't fully let her go until he's sure she can stand on her own, and will bend to try to help steady her with the careful touch of the inside of his left (crowned) wrist on her arm. Still has his invocation and the claws active, after all; can't risk hurting her. ]


Everyone is still under attack and trying to get out. [ He hesitates, eyes skimming over the wounds from where the wings had been. Still bleeding, and her back had felt wet... ] Something—seemed to come over you, and it didn't seem like you could hear me.

[ It's -- the kindest answer he can come up with, because they're also still in the middle of it. And she doesn't need to hear from someone like him right now that she had tried to kill someone. But he presses his lips together in concern. ]

Be careful, you're still hurt.
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[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-25 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Tears aren't a sign of weakness, just strong feelings. Or just the natural way a body reacts to pain. Maybe it's odd for a boy, but he's never minded shedding them. He just minds when other people point it out.

Though he does hate it when others cry, and is moved to try and wipe them away. He would almost and hesitates slightly at that, just because he doesn't know her, except that she rubs at them so forcefully herself that he figures it's good that he did not and will just help keep her steady as she collects herself.

It feels a little easier to breath for him too; the contact. Or rather, rejuvenated. Even the gash on his cheek doesn't seem to sting as badly. But he also isn't one to give a second thought to 'moonlacing' or any of that. To reach out to steady someone is to reach out to steady someone: human concern. Other things don't change or influence that, and his own minor injuries don't matter. He's experienced much worse. ]


"Sin eater..." [ He echoes it with a curious blink, wondering if she actually knows what that creature is. Sin eater sounds... horrible. Which seems apt, but he'll have to ask about that later.

Although he seems slightly confused by the request for her sword, he gives a reluctant nod and lets go to retrieve it from where it had fallen nearby. ]


You can heal with it? [ His voice pitches up in a slightly incredulous manner. He's seen some pretty incredible abilities, even in his world, but that's a first. And he offers it back to her, hilt first, as he looks it over finally and tries to determine what it's made of. ] I thought that was some sort of shock ability.
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[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-26 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ It honestly looks like Innocence to him. The crystalline, glowing appearance, the fact it has supernatural abilities. He'd ask about it, if she hadn't clarified by saying it was a mage's weapon, and that she knew both black and white magic. So -- it is more like sorcery then. Even if it isn't.

Black magic in particular -- that gets a surprised, scrutinizing sort of look from him. Black magic (sorcery) means necromancy to him, the forbidden arts his master had been skilled in, and she didn't seem the type. But then... nothing he's understood seems to apply half the time anymore.

He looks slightly crestfallen, especially as she's healed him after exhausting herself so much, but she did so so before he can protest so he just shakes his head. ]


Please don't apologize. It's alright, I feel fine. [ And he cups his now-healed cheek with his non-clawed hand, as if it a little surprise to find there's no longer a gash there as his finger traces where it once was. Some people in his world held talent for abilities to dial back injuries, after all. But none could heal them outright. ]

Thank you. [ He means that. But more importantly: ]

Are you sure you're alright after that?
likethelight: (87)

[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-26 08:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Alisaie.

Alisaie please. ]


Wait! [ Hopefully she'll forgive him for grabbing for her wrist with his one good hand before she just charges off?? Not hard, but...! please don't make him chase you. ]

Just because it isn't in you anymore doesn't mean it couldn't happen again! [ Also it's dangerous to go alone, but... somehow he kind of feels like that would fall on deaf ears. She seems the type.

His expression, though, becomes a bit more gentle but twice as earnest. ]


I'll go with you.
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likethelight: (180)

awesome! ♥

[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-27 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ Twins? He looks a touch surprised, but gives a nod and lets his hand drop. That will make it easier for even Allen to be able to spot him, won't it?

She starts off back inside and he'll join at a quick, if easy pace at her side. Even if he does wonder for a moment if he shouldn't drop his invocation, just because... he's feeling a bit more drained than he should, given he hasn't actually used his actual powers that much? Which is a little worrisome, but he doesn't have time to dwell on that. And going back into danger, it's better to keep it active than risk reaction time if they do run into danger again.

It helps, having a description and knowing what to look for, but especially as they re-enter the fray closer to the epicenter of all the panic and destruction -- ]


What's your brother's name?
leveilleur: (❧The gnawing of a mouse)

[personal profile] leveilleur 2020-01-27 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ Indeed, they're twins. They're identical in almost every way except for the obvious. So when the pair rejoin the fray, it's easy to spot the snowy-haired lad laying on the ground. It's a miracle that Alphinaud wasn't trampled during the chaos. A testament of his ever-present good fortunes despite it all. Unfortunately, Alphinaud was laying face first on the ground with a pair of monstrous white wings stabbed into his back. He lays there motionless, his blue eyes shut as he tries in vain to stay conscious.

There's no rhyme or reason for what's happening here. It seems that the event organizers of this bizarre event were just as clueless as everyone else. While Alphinaud tried his best to staunch the chaos by directing his fellow moonblessed towards safety, he fell prey to the seraph's malevolent ploy.

This is a fitting end, isn't it? Alphinaud knew sooner or later his luck would abandon him but he never expected it to be this soon. He feels strangely numb right now, almost as if he's been paralyzed from the neck down.

This is dreadful.
]
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[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-27 05:20 am (UTC)(link)
[ ...Alphinaud? Alisaie???

He'd sputter if the circumstances were different. Very nearly does anyway, gawking at her for a second -- at least before she catches sight of the other boy on the ground and, recognizing the shift in her expression for what it is and following her line of sight, his own quickly drops. The wings piercing through him, laying there so still...

No. They weren't too late, were they...? ]


Be careful-- [ He waves a hand slightly in Alisaie's direction in warning, but it's mostly moot. He's moving closer as well to check and see if the other boy is alive as well-- if he's breathing or conscious. Even if it's dangerous they can't not. ]
leveilleur: (❧I don't know what to do)

[personal profile] leveilleur 2020-01-27 03:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's still breathing.. Alphinaud might be stuck within this awkward twilight of awake and asleep but he's breathing at the very least. He was completely unresponsive at first until they came closer. It's then that he opened his eyes.]

Alisaie? [If his name wasn't a dead giveaway for Allen, then perhaps his accent does. Alphinaud and his sister both possess similar accents. However, Aliphaund's is slightly more noticeable.] By the Twelve, what are you doing here?

[He was hoping his sister was somewhere safe by now. The last thing he wants is for something to happen to her. Alisaie is the only family he has left at this point. Their parents both perished when they were young and their grandfather soon followed. It's a miserable truth that they deal with every day.]

S-Stay back!

[He warns them as he tries to move. His body still feels numb but at least he knows he's not dead.]

I don't know what sort of ailment these wings cause me.

[While Alphinaud can tell something is wrong with him, he can't exactly tell what. His rational thoughts are being overwhelmed by a darker emotion that borderlines on sorrow. He doesn't know what to make of this phenomenon but he's scared to think of what could happen.]
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[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-27 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He recognizes Alphinaud's voice alright. The world is sometimes a ridiculously small place and by now he should just expect the ridiculous. But there's also no time to really dwell on that.

Relief that the other seems alright—relatively speaking—is short lived when he shouts a warning and staggers under the wings, though it's as much in surprise that the other boy seems coherent, unlike Alisaie. ]
!

[ Looking back to Alisaie, he hesitates. But... at a quick glance between them, he moves aside quietly. Guard up and staying close, but edging around more to the side so that she can be the one to approach directly. Allen might be reckless and jump into things he shouldn't, he might be uneasy about the situation and not like it, but he isn't stupid. Alphinaud wouldn't recognize him anyway looking like this, and the confusion if he did recognize his voice probably wouldn't help.

Besides, in his experience, the thing that can best get someone who's out of control to back down.. is someone they share a close bond with. In his experience so many times over, though... it isn't to say those were happy, either.

But they're siblings. And if Alphinaud is being affected by something like Alisaie was—runaway rage in her case, was it?—then the person who has the best chance of reaching him is her.

Scolding tone or not. ]
leveilleur: (❧In the blue veil of the night)

[personal profile] leveilleur 2020-01-28 03:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[Despite seeing coherent enough, Alphinaud has no idea what's happening to him. He feels utterly liftless almost as if something drained him of all his energy. The strange numbness is starting to relent some but he feels sluggish and unfocused now. He doesn't know what the hell's happening to him at all.]

Don't. [He warns again once he's finally upright. The dizziness is worse now that he's up. Alphinaud could feel his eyes watering more too.] Alisaie, what is this? I can't figure out what's happening but I feel as if I've lost all control.

[This is perhaps the most bizarre thing to happen to him. It's almost as if he's being swallowed up by emotions. While wrath claimed his sister earlier, it seems as if Alphinaud is experiencing sorrow. He pauses momentarily as he tries to collect his thoughts while doing his best to ignore the tears streaking down his face.

That's when he finally notices Allen.
]

A friend of yours?

[He asks while trying his best to stay calm. Of course, he doesn't want anyone to see him like this but he has very little choice. It's like his emotions are rebelling against him at this point.]
likethelight: (『smile』helpful peering)

[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-29 08:16 am (UTC)(link)
[ --it's the tears that do it, as startling as they are to Allen, as he doesn't believe that's just because of the pain. It's quite different, the effect those wings seem to have, between the two of them. Though even if that might make it easier and safer to approach Alphinaud-- it's crueler, too. Especially if it's as she said-- "but it seems to amplify feelings within you."

Which is why he moves forward too, not just because he was noticed. Crouching down beside Alisaie as well and offering the other boy a bittersweet, but gentle smile, though he won't move to touch him and lets his sister do that.

After all, even if the other were to become a threat and suddenly lash out in his sorrow—something Allen knows better than anyone—he can't just ignore someone suffering. Even if it's just to sit there and support them both. ]


Mn, it's "Allen". [ Which, before Alphinaud might wonder about that: ] It's okay--

[ He speaks softly, like someone used to being gentle and calm even (or especially) when presented with something terrible. Because it's cruel. Cruel and horrible, arrogant, if Alisaie is correct. Twisting people's feelings and using them against them, and doing so in such a brutal manner. And it pisses him off. ]

This time you don't have to be the healer, alright?

[ If his voice and his (albeit common) name weren't already a giveaway. ]
leveilleur: (❧The gnawing of a mouse)

[personal profile] leveilleur 2020-01-29 01:39 pm (UTC)(link)
We ought to have that thing subdued.

[ Alphinaud states bitterly while trying his best to dry his tears. This is horrifically embarrassing of him. He feels like a toddler crying this much but he simply can't stop. the poor boy just feels so miserable, so hopeless. It's as if he's being suffocated by his emotions. Hell, he can barely breathe at this point. His heart is racing and his body feels like it's fire. This malady is far worse than Alphinaud is willing to admit. After all, he's the type to put on a strong face regardless of his plight. Though, it feels like his façade is slowly crumbling as more tears fall. ]

It's as if everything I've tried to...to bury is all spilling forth at once. [ He admits once Alisaie kneels next to him. That slight bit of chroma between them seems to be calming him down some. Maybe the answer to healing this malady lies within chroma? That's certainly food for thought. ] Not even during all of our trials did I ever succumb to the sorrow.

[ This is maddening! It's as if he's about to unravel from the seams. He can't let this happen. He won't.]

I care not about the pain, I want them gone!

[ Truth be told, the pain alone isn't what's making him sob. It's just everything. As much as Alphinaud claims the melancholy he feels is fabricated, there's some truth to it. Their adventure to Eorzea has been racked with hardships since their first voyage. They thankfully overcame many great challenges during their journey but for every mile crossed, there's a handful of sorrows. Alphinaud brings his hands to his lips in hopes of silencing himself. He feels so pathetic right now, so low. The shame he feels is starting to outweigh the sorrow. ]

...Twelve preserve me.

[ He mutters quietly once he realizes that's truely "Allen", the hunter he met earlier within the game. Alphinaud stares at him wide-eyed in surprise before turning scarlet in shame. He hides his face within his hands and lets out a long deep suffering sigh before suddenly inching closer to Alisaie for comfort. Usually, it's the other way around in terms of comfort but Alphinaud clings to his sister nonetheless.]

T-This is not how I thought we meet.

[ He chuckles bitterly as the wings upon his back start to flutter. They're slowly turning into ash. Slowly but surely. ]
likethelight: (『♥』that's why we'll be fine)

[personal profile] likethelight 2020-01-29 07:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Heh— Alphinaud's reaction gets a small laugh from Allen, though not in any teasing way but appreciating the irony of the situation and glad to see that side of him bubble up again. Embarrassment is better than sadness, after all. And it was a bit of a shock for Allen too, just one covered up in the moment...

Although his expression drops to something a bit more gentle and thoughtful at seeing how the two cling to each other, and he settles back a bit, palms on his knees, as Alisaie's words echo for a moment. "We've been through so much..." Mn, that's obvious. But it's also not the thing that strikes him about that.

It's good. It's good that they have each other, that's the conclusion more important than any other that he draws. And wonders not for the first time that it must be nice, having siblings.

It must be nice...

Though when Alisaie comforts the other like and says it's alright to cry, he can't help but suddenly remember how violently she'd scrubbed at her own tears, almost as if she were chastising herself for having them. As he would-- beyond being someone who notices and pays attention to other people's feelings, hypocrites tend to notice other hypocrites.

Although he'd never point that out. ]


Aaah, well— somewhat. [ He looks a touch sheepish at Alisaie's question, scratching at his cheek slightly with his good hand. With still such a bright and relieved sort of smile, though. Like he's in good spirits now. ]

We were somewhere else before we were here. In that game(?). [ Feels so strange to call it that still... ] He told me about you, too. Although I didn't realize it was you before.

[ But he pauses and his smile becomes a bit more gentle again -- thoughtful -- before he lets his hand drop. ]

I'm glad you're both alright.
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[personal profile] burstmodes 2020-01-25 02:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The thing about it all is... he wants to like her.

Before, it's not as if he'd known her, had any memories of them being together, and while he could see the appeal – even his other self had known what was up, good job other him – that still didn't negate the fact it was awkward. But worse than that, apparently, is waking up in some dim room on a mat on the floor curled up against her. At first, he's not conscious of where he is and who he's with, feeling dazed and groggy and very much not his usual self, and he rests a hand on warm skin, unsure if he's trying to press closer or push whoever it is away until consciousness really seeps in. Then, it's the size of the room and how musty it is that forces him to sit up, hand pushing at his hair in an attempt to think.

What was the last thing he remembered? Did he remember anything?

... at least he knew his name.

Everything else felt like a blur though, glancing down at his fingers and flexing them, trying to get his body motivated to move because... yeah, he's definitely in bed with a pretty, half-naked girl he'd only met once and – Prompto blinks at the simple band around his finger. That, too, is completely new. ]


Hey. [ His voice sounds a bit weird, mostly dry and unused for the most part, and he tries to ignore the way he flushes just a little when he reaches over to gently shake her. ] Are you okay? We should probably get outta here.

[ Wherever here is. ]
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Sneakin' in the bordello

[personal profile] beautifulbeast 2020-01-25 09:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Human avatars seem decently popular, even those with only minor animal flairs. Take Juno for instance because Alisaie is likely not to so much notice Juno's avatar as strange but how she's still reacting to it, even now that she's been given a disguise for this whole letter delivery business.

She's standing before a mirror, pressing fingertips against her cheeks on either side of her face looking equals parts baffled and equal parts intrigued. "It's just so strange."

Frankly though to an outsider, she doesn't really look all that strange.
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[personal profile] beautifulbeast 2020-01-28 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
Juno casts a glance over her should at Alisaie and with hands against her cheeks still her brow furrows smack dab between her eyebrows.

"No, not at all! It's so different like this. I was really shocked when I looked in a mirror for the first time!"

Ah yes, the request. Juno huffs out a breath, looking more than a little put out.

"I hope so. I don't mind the outfit but I didn't exactly volunteer for this -- er, well, for the letter I did but..."
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[personal profile] beautifulbeast 2020-01-30 04:54 am (UTC)(link)
A fluster rises right up in Juno's cheeks, now no longer even mildly obscured by fur. The soft aggravated sound that follows as well as the tense lashing about of her tail behind her gives Alisaie all the information she needs.

When she mentioned the bits about experience though, Juno's brows relax a bit. "I'll admit, I have a lot more experience with dancing than sneaking. Maybe if you can help me with one, I can help some with the other?"
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[personal profile] beautifulbeast 2020-02-07 03:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Anything to go over. Hm. Juno thinks a moment on what might help with the whole looking like we're not sneaking thing.

"Should we have code names of some sort?"

That seems sensible. Maybe?
leveilleur: (❧The gnawing of a mouse)

[personal profile] leveilleur 2020-02-06 07:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't want to talk about it. He really doesn't want to talk about it.

Even though everything is well and good now, Alphinaud is still mentally reeling from what transpired. His back slightly aches from where the wings pierced him serving as an annoying reminder despite the hot shower. Still, Alphinaud doesn't want to talk about what happened there at the amphitheater. While they're both quite fortunate not to succumb to the negative effects of that dreadful affair, Alphinaud can't help but feel as if the whole ordeal opened Pandora's Box. He knew the conversation would come sooner than later but he was still hoping that Alisaie wouldn't ask.

So when she does, Alphinaud cannot help but sigh.
]

...I didn't want to worry you. [He mutters while keeping his gaze on the wall.] I didn't want to worry you or anyone else.
leveilleur: (❧The gnawing of a mouse)

[personal profile] leveilleur 2020-02-06 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I know.

[He reminds silent for a time as he gathers his thoughts. Even though it's been a full year, Alphinaud cannot help but feel as if it was yesterday that he had to flee Eorzea with all of the known-world after him. He lost nearly everything. His friends, the Crystal Braves, and nearly all of his ambitions. As he watched the Scions fall one by one, Alphinaud felt a piece of himself nearly die with them. It was nothing short of a miracle how they managed to survive but Alphinaud still blames himself for what transpired. Everything changed so suddenly and so violently. He didn't have a chance to process his loss once they reached the outskirts of Coerthas. That dreadful year left its mark upon him but Alphinaud did his best to keep that hidden.

After all, he didn't want his sister to know. He never intended for Alisaie to know just how he felt about the whole ordeal. It wasn't her place to know and he certainly didn't plan of burdening her with the knowledge of it.
]

I apologize, Alisaie.

[Alphinaud mumbles under his breath as he closes his eyes.]

But I thought...I thought it was for the best.
leveilleur: (❧In the blue veil of the night)

[personal profile] leveilleur 2020-02-07 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
[ At first, Alphinaud was scared she would leave. The two of them used to be so close when they were little often accompanying each other whenever their parents were off on business. While they most certainly had their quarrels, Alphinaud loves his sister and always wanted to be there for her. However, this isn't something he'll admit easily lest he wants to hear Alisaie gloat about it. Alphinaud is much more tenderhearted than he seems. He knows this and she knows it just as well. ]

Alisaie? [ He tilts his head to the side a little until he felt a familiar warmth at his shoulder. ] Oh...

[ Her embrace is like a healing balm, one that blankets Alphinaud with the warmth he missed since the death of their family. It serves as a reminder of happier times away from the misery that grips him still. Even though the boy strives to keep his melancholy at bay, Alphinaud never forgave himself for all the woe he caused and perhaps never will. Still, Alphinaud knows better than to allow this misery to overcome him. That's why he strives to forget it even exists.. ]

I don't want to cry. [ He proclaims despite his eyes starting to sting from unshed tears. ] I don't have the right to cry.

Not after...everything I've done. Not after all the death and sorrow, I caused.

[ Alphinaud does his best to keep the tears at bay but they start to fall regardless. ]